Monday, 13 April 2015

Sydney Desire Map Workshops


 It's so nice to be back in my roots, regrouping, consciously, intentionally, making the next transitions.

And having the opportunity to gather and work with my dearest old friends to focus and direct theirs too.

From their heart, their core.

Come join us to reset your course, deep and true. . .

First we'll be with the gorgeous Lizzy, nutritionist, healer + shamanic midwife in a beautiful home in Paddington.


A course for discovering your core desired feelings … and lighting up your life

With:      Kaye Llewelyn & Elizabeth Criner
Date: … Friday evening April 17+ Saturday 18
Place: …Paddington
Cost: … $300 including a Desire Map workbook 

How do you want to feel?

In your heart, your body, your career?
When you wake up in the morning,
when you speak your peace,
when you go after what you want?

is a program for clarifying what you truly want in every area of your life, and using that powerful awareness to guide your choices from now on.

You will leave this workshop knowing your “core desired feelings” – a guidance system for your decision-making. A GPS for your soul.

We’ll look at our perceptions around “feelings” and goal setting. We’ll examine how we drive and strive, and see where in our lives we experience freedom — and where we want more of it.

You will be guided through 5 life areas, to explore your most desired feelings in:
  • Lifestyle + Livelihood
  • Creativity + Learning
  • Body + Wellness
  • Relationships + Society
  • Essence + Spirituality 

We will create sacred space, inner and outer – an altar, backed by a great music playlist and tied together with shared intentions.

We’re going to burn limiting beliefs (figuratively, and maybe literally.)

We will offer up our own wisdom, relate, and learn from each other — like women (and some very cool guys) always do.

You will make some soul-anchored declarations and attach them to some every day PLANS. Poetic to the practical.

As we go soul deep with desire mapping, we’ll loosen our bodies with movement and our minds with dreams.


The workshop is limited to 12 spaces.
We’ll meet from 7-10  Friday, then Saturday  11 to 5.
Registration and payment contact Me


Plan for aha’s and alleluias. After declaring their core desired feelings, people have been known to make changes.
You may quit stuff, launch something, stand up, shine brighter, ask for more.
You may feel the way you’ve always wanted to.

Big love
Kaye + Lizzy

ps. Stay tuned for/ ask me about the May workshop with the wonderful Jen Cudmore, wholistic kinesiologist extrordinaire . . .

Monday, 23 March 2015

keeping your head above water, while diving / or doodling your way out of a mess

I was so stumped this day. Frustrated, overloaded, confused, mess, papers, notes everywhere, overwhelmed. 
From somewhere a small voice said -  just draw. Draw it out. I swiped the table clear. Grabbed notebook + pencil and doodled. Three little circles and a big straight line . . . then out came this guy.

 A whale, the biggest thing, a lot of darkness and an impossibility. That's exactly how I felt. 
Drawing it out alone felt good, I could see it, I could even smile, again. I could see I was taking in and in more information, more options, more ideas and not letting any out. I felt like a scuba diver with her weight belt on and life vest fully inflated.  
Funny along came my man, saw it, and said 'he needs to let a little more air out that spout'. Yeah. But not holding on to it all and letting it out was scary. I didn't know what would happen.

It all went . . . flat, like a sole on the floor. Blink. Nothing.
Now what? 
Ok breathe, just only what you need 
What's the first thing . . .

So keeping your head above water, and diving. You can't do both at the same time.
You gotta let go.

Thanks to some scribbles, I found my way on. Free - to change :)

What's your best way to check in with how you're feeling? 

And then to ask

How do I want to feel?

Friday, 12 December 2014

How endings make beginnings

Hello Friends

A bit of a round up

I’ve been now three years living in Switzerland. I’ve met a lot of international people and yes, it really takes that long, to land.

So I finished a project! Something I’d promised to myself. It really helped with all the *landing*. If you’ve got questions – start a project. If you want to find the answers – finish it! that's what I say.
Anyway that’s how it felt for me. It is a book, a picture book – I made it, all of it, by hand. It’s called Pocket money; it’s about random acts of kindness, synchronicity and serendipity. And there are a couple of the limited edition of 42 left. If you want one – email me.

I wrote the epic blog post about it. Turns out that was my 100th blog post! It had me looking over where I’d started on this adventure and what this emBOLDed thing all meant.

Then in that moment of stillness, that comes after *finished*, dropped the next serendipity. The perfect container for my work of helping others going through big changes, dreaming up projects, and getting them done.

It’s a heart centred approach to driving your life, but mostly it’s all about designing a life that feels good! There will be workshops, there will be private sessions, ok and there will probably be coloured pencils. Cue drum roll: I am now a Licensee and Facilitator of *The Desire Map*!!

Let’s be a part of a movement that starts from our hearts.

I’m refreshing my list. I’ll be sharing what’s on my mind, what’s in my heart and sometimes the *bold beings* that cross my path. I’ll keep it short and occasional.

So if you want come along, please sign up here.

Thank you.

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Tuesday, 11 November 2014

on making a book - my first

When I finished making my book (yep by hand!) the question I was asked by most often was 'wow, how long did it take you'? After a kind of head tilting aaahh. . . like that explains, um what? the sightings at the railway station? the missed dates, phone calls, German classes? that paint on your fingers?

So I gathered up my instagrams for a behind the scenes story
or it could even be the recap of a year
or all of my time here. . .

oh, so
where does it begin?

. . . I think I need a cuppa tea

It took a lot of tea
and lots of different 'takes'

But where it really began was a desire 

to make a kids book 
You know the kind that still work when you're older.
Like these . . .   (I'm gonna make a list of my favourites - I hope you help me add to it)

It took a while from that first out-loud-admition.
I fully wrote and drafted two other books, I did short courses and had a wonderful writing circle full of encouragement back in Australia before this book came in the end - that had no words.

ok more tea and plenty of getting sidetracked on the computer didn't make it any faster.

Then one day these guys turned up, with raised eyebrows, 'so what's going on???"  . . .

and I said 'Ah, there you are' raising mine
and drew out their stories. . .
then started to paint.

ok, not straight away
there were lots (and lots) of stalled moments.
Weekly mutual mentoring with new local Powerhouse pal Pauline helped
and these surprising new leftie friends came along with a different kind :)

Funny questions came up, like, what are they going to wear?
Then I found old sewing patterns my sister had sent me, from my mum's bottom draw
and I made them some clothes. . .

pulled out pencils
sharpened up edges
brightened up bits. . .

There was plenty of mess
but it was good mess
I liked it

Finally there were twenty eight pages.

And then came the technical stuff
I had to learn how to play with this . . .
Thanks again Pauline

Scanned and formatted and pdf'd, it then was all in one tiny memory stick and
Off to the printers
= one big box of solid paper

Then it all left my dining room table and took the train, into the city and off to work - at the Buchbekleidung (book-clother) - a book binder in Zurich on the river Limmat. An amazing place, I'd stumbled upon one day on my bike almost two years ago, exploring the back streets of Zurich, floor to ceiling books and paper and material and old book binding machinery. That day I made myself a pact, I'd be back to make my own book! And here I was. A whole new world had started, with the whole first day - folding.

then there was gluing - lots of gluing, 50x books of gluing. a sticky business

Monotonous sometimes, but never a dull moment. Always someone coming in the door with a cool project and always Christa getting them involved. Even my kids surprised me one school-free day and next minute she had them making books. They went home with five notebooks, hand sewn ;)

The pages started coming together . . .
These fold out kind = leporello (my new book word)
that's the kind that open up like a concertina - fun, it takes the story all over the room and out the door

Then there were the covers . . .
more cutting, gluing, sticking

and did I mention the machines? The huge guillotine, the old presses and our favourite the cutting machine that can shave off one rainbow millimetre of a whole stack of books!
And the days and days (and nights) it all took? Oh and the mistakes? argh! the drop in the belly at 9pm when you think you've really really finished after the three other days when you thought you'd really be finished? That's the time you need a working buddy (Lib) who knows what's going on, for those *sigh* exasperated texts or *grr's*, who's been there, who understands the tangles. A place you can share the not so good bits with the great ones too.

I lost my earlier mutual mentoring buddy to the international-life-and-going-back-home story :/ I miss the tea and the excursions to the city but it still works on skype.
I so value this friendship of co encouragement that now I'm putting dates all through my week, like my great walk-together-speak-in-German-friend, and my walk-a-bit-faster-oh-o-jogging friend, and the watch-out-running friend?! I'll be fit and fluent in no time. ha  ;)

Here was a window when we (that's me and the book) went out to play - we were invited to the
12. Frauenfelder Buch und Druckkunst Messe (that's Art Book Fair) It was amazing to see all the beautiful books and meet some of the makers. Totally inspired. But.
It felt a bit like holding your two year old's hand though and asking her to tell that lovely story she came out with in the bath. Oh and remember all this was in German! ha ha, and every time I missed another German class in the 'making of' Christa would say 'You are learning more German with me' (in German of course) and I was. I recommend it now - any project or curiosity - for us in other countries - try it in another language - Challenge on ;)

So back in the workshop and hand doing the final touches, or the crazy bits = stamping letter by letter :/  thanks to maya for the stamps. Just like it takes a village to raise a child it's all the interwoven parts I love that make a project come alive.

then it was time to celebrate and dedicate.

This story is dedicated to my mother.  To those random odd conversations with strange Greek villagers, that made the teenage us cringe, but that brought invitations and sacks of fresh apricots to out feet. To the warmth and the boldness and the welcoming smile. And to the hand bag full of weird stuff that we used to scoff at, but that always produced the perfect answer to help someone.  

Frau Gerold's Garten reminded me of her. A little bit of wildness in the Swiss city.  I chose it for
The Launch. It was another place I'd found in my Zurich wanderings. The Powerhouse girls sent me past there on my way their great meetings at the Viaduct. In the summer it's all outside and renegade gardens in boxes but in winter it was even better. We snuggled into the wooden Stubli, fire burning, all decorated with knitting ha. just like my mum's ;) We shared coffee and cakes and books and stories. And I got to thank all the people that have made this new city, country, place, feel like home. 

The books went off with special messages and hugs, there was music, and
we made some flowers from paper - and left them behind, on our way home 
to brighten up someone else's winter.

 Seeding serendipity.

So, yes there was a lot of tea involved . . .
here's how much!

and much more that spilled over and got dipped in with paintbrushes . . .
yep Yogi tea - with the tiny reminders every time.
That one on the top?  'Fall in love with your strength boldness' ;)

What's your desire?
What's your project?
What's your tea??

with love
and gratitude


p.s. They did also ask 'Can I get one?' ' Do you have any left?'
Yes, there are a few of the limited edition left,  if you want one send me a note.
Or stay tuned for the regular published version - coming soon.

book launch - it's finished! and a party :)

Monday, 22 September 2014

how to make your own tale

For this one it helps if you are at the beach 
with some sunshine and a whole lot of sand.
Any other time 
just start where you are, with what you have. 

We are all creative. We all have a story.